i need to stir some panic

i have been so unproductive this week it's not even funny. i have chapters to write and a stupid joint essay to churn out and for some reason when i lay out my notes and spread out hte reading material, i get sleepy. or i feel the urge to watch a stupid movie. or owrse still, i've discovered the joys of sampling tracks on iTunes. mother of jesus help me.

the joint essay:
almost as bad as not knowing what to say, is not knowing HOW to say it. i've got bits of my argument in my head floating around but i have no idea how to integrate it. i have no idea how to make everyting fit together, i feel like i have pieces of several essays but not one whole sustainable article. i'll get there. but i need ot finish this soon so that i can submit a draft to lisa and gillian before the final copy is due. aaaah.

the dissertation:
is what i'd rather be doing. it's the work that i've got under control i think. unfortunately i'm the kind of person who wants to do things one at a time. and i hate having to think about hte joint when all i want to do is work on the dissertation. moooaaaan...

however i feel like there is a positive difference from the way i was last term. i'm not stressing. i'm not fussing. i just want to get on with the rest of my life. how very zen compared to the wreck i was last term.

in july, benoit and i are going to visit his parents in Ile de Re. the week after that we're going to Tuscany. we're actually focussing on florence but tuscany sounds so much nicer, doesn't it?

if i do marry this boy, it's promising to be a lovely adventure. hope i don't get knocked up too soon.